Who's looking after?

Assalamualaikum.

1 of the difficulties some couples hafta face is who shall look after their baby when the wife hafta go back to work when her ML ended.

I always have this convo with my girlfriends. If they don't have a volunteery mom/mil, they hafta think of a solution which is either putting their baby in IFC or to get a helper or to quit their job.

OMG quit their job?? I can never think of that as an option. Gahhhh!

It is a bonus if their mom/mil staying with them, not working, still strong & loveeee to take care of their baby. Read: my mom. But too bad, I don't have baby yet huahuahua. So now my mom helps to look after my cats only lah. Hehe.

For those who can depend on their mom/mil who is not staying with them is still considered lucky though they need to get up super early as they hafta go out earlier to send their kids before they go to work.

But for those who can't depend on their mom/mil, they have no choice but to choose 1 of those options.

Some still in pain and sadness that they hafta send their baby to IFC. It is not only expensive but they hafta rush back home so they won't be late cause if not, they hafta pay the penalty fees.

5 minutes $10! What?! I can get 5 items from Daiso with that $10 sey! Or McSpicy meal with a hot fudge sundae perhaps! Or 2 viscose shawls from Geylang Serai. Hahahaha $10 is so preciousss!

These care centres can be risky too cause if 1 child is down with sickness - say HFMD - your baby will easily get infected too. And since they have afew babies to look after, your baby will most of the time left alone, talking to the ceiling and thinking what will  their future holds. Oh tough thoughts!

Second option? Get a helper! But you'll feel uneasy and always worry what's gona happen at home. Best is to install cameras. But with cameras also, some helper, alah I don't wana say lah! And getting a helper is not a cheaper option anyway. Next year I heard their downpayment and such raised alot. Adoi...

But right, I think I would wana get a helper instead of putting my baby in IFC. At least my house will be maintained, I don't hafta rush, yada yada lah. But, that is if I am lucky enough, I'll get a great helper. If I am assigned to a crazy one, that would be a big problem!

Ok ok I will still consider getting a helper. Provided my mom is no longer capable of taking care of my baby when God wants to give me teeheehee.

Last but not least, the idea of quitting their job!! Though I think some are happy to quit and call themselves 'SAHM', but some wish they don't hafta choose this option.

I have 2 good friends who have been SAHM for couple of years but are looking around for a job. 1 wants to take part time job. She tried afew places but all ended up in less than 10 days cause of the not flexible timing. Another girlfriend need a full time job so her life can go back on track hahaha.

I think I can't see myself doing that man! Not in a million years. And being stuck with my baby 24/7? Eh I really cannot imagine lah.

BUT I can't put a fullstop here. Who knows when I have my own child, I will beg my husband to let me stay home. And I will cry together with my baby so I don't hafta go to work.

It is not easy to be a SAHM when financial is at risk. Everything is so tight especially in Singapore when everythingggg is getting expensive. Unless their husband earns alotttt then that cannot say lah.

Well then, to each its own lah right. Every couple has their own way so no judging people, no judging! In whatever ways they decide, I just pray for the best for everyone. May Allah make it easy for them.

God works in misterious ways. Here I am having a mom at home, fit and alwayssss says she's eager to look after my children, God says it is not my time yet. Not sure when is the right time though. It could be anytime man! Suddenly next 9 months and BAM here comes my junior.

Yes my junior not Qiey's junior. I want a girl so can matchy matchy with me! Can dress her up! Then she can wear my engagement clothes when she gets engaged in the future. Hahahahha okayyy too far Annisa.

Whatever it is, lets just enjoy this "free time" first ok. InshaaAllah He'll give me and Qiey babiessss when He thinks we are ready - which I think I'll never be ready but He'll just give cause He knows.

Sign out!

Sauna

Assalamualaikum.

Last 2 ke 3 week, my bestie si Mas texted me tanya nak ikut dia pergi sauna ke tak. Dalam hati aku budak ni zumba lah sauna lah. Member semangat send aku gambar & link of that company. Nampak interesting dok so aku pun, ok ah lets give it a try.

So aku bilang Qiey lah yang aku nak ikut Mas pergi sauna. Amazingly dia boleh tak kasi eh. Tak pernah-pernah dia tak kasi aku go somewhere. So aku pun merajuk dengan dia huhu.

Then Mas and Maria (our Zumba instructor aka Mas's colleague) asik cakap the sauna session best best best. I is jealous you know! So aku pun cuba lah nasib try tanya Qiey lagi. This time, dia cakap boleh. Woohoo!! Tak tahu what made him change his mind. Suspect aku kasi bayekkk punya. HAHAHAHA!

So semalam akhirnya aku dapat try tu sauna. Ke-excited-an aku makin meluap-luap. Once reached, I registered and made payment. After that we were given towel and clothing.

The pricing is $35 for 2 sessions. The next session tu hafta be done within another 7 days if not, it will expire. Tu part tak gerek ah dok. Reason is, they want us to come everyweek cause it will work better for your body. Hokayyy...

Kita pun salin baju. The baju is a 2 piece baju, a kimono-ish top and a 3/4 pants. So before we enter the room (makin excited ni aku), we hafta drink a glass of filtered water to keep us hydrated. Dah settle 1 cawan, kita pun masuk.

I was warned that the floor can be abit hot tapi kakak counter cakap panas panas sedap hahaha. Oh btw the kakak counter is a reallyyyy friendly and funny lady. Aku suka cara dia. Tak pushy and selalu bikin klaka.

Ok ah dah enter tu room, not bad ah panas dia. Dia bukan panas panassss tau. Dia panas bangsa manageable ah. The room has 8 "beds". Beds tu actually on the floor jer, it is a special tiles. Ah macam kat gambar tu (photo taken from website). Ah baju tadi aku cakap pun macam dalam gambar ni ah.

Oh oh they have 3 rooms. 1 room all ladies, 1 room all men and another room is mixed gender. But bila nak duduk luar tu takut lelaki lalu lalang, boleh cover sikit ah dengan tuala that was given. Tapi semalam aku tak nampak 1 lelaki pun noh.

Si Mas dah pergi afew times so she's used to the hotness. Member tak baring atas tuala k. Dia baring straight on the tiles. Suspect kulit dia kebal, dah boleh join thaipusam hahaha.

Mas tanya aku ok ke tak, ok jer bro. Tapi bosan per, takde benda nak buat. Stare at the ceiling. Iyer lah mana boleh bawak masuk handphone. Tapi aku rasa 5 minutes later gitu, aku tertidur.

K the session actually depends on how long your body can take. Once your body dah macam starts to fidgit, means ok your body tells you that you had enough. Kakak tu cakap some people 25 minutes dah settle. But kalau boleh, 30-40 minutes ah. So we stayed for 40 minutes.

Ah aku tadi cakap aku tertidur kan, amazingly boleh tertidur. Aku tersadar sebab ada orang masuk bilik tu. Aku tengok baru 15 minutes passed. Aku dah start berpeluh. Aku turn and baring on my left side. Mak aiiii.... peluh aku semua mengalir bak waterfall! Ok bedek ah, mengalir bak water droplets kat tingkap time hujan. And it keeps on going tau. Shiok pulak tu hahaha! Weird!

Baru nak terlelap lagi, ada orang ngorok eh. Suspect Mas. Ceh hahaha tak lah, obviously the new person yang entered the room. Halermak aku macam nak pergi tempat dia and kejut dia tapi takpe ah, member penat agaknyer. Kalau dia kat sebelah aku, memang dah mentak kene tap macam Qiey selalu kene. Aku tak brutal ah. Tap sikit jer.

Turned to my right pulak, panas kan sebelah kanan. Tak ku sangka si Mas masih boleh tahan tanpa tuala. Orang cakap biar kebal jangan bebal hahaha.

K last 10 minutes, aku dah start rasa yang peluh aku seluas Pacific Ocean. Lek lek tahan lagi 10 minutes jer dok. Kau tahu apa aku buat? Aku do minor exercise haha. Aku buat glute bridges, bicycles and planking. Weyh not bad ah buat dalam tu room, kau rasa macam peluh kau lagi bertenaga hahaha.

Basically this sauna thingy bukan setakat masuk bilik panas abeh berpeluh tau. It is more than that of course. Abeh kau rasa $35 for 2 sessions tu suka-suka ah? Puas hati duduk dalam toilet rumah on water water from shower. Hahaha!

This session is more to deoxidation therapy. It has alot of benefits. Semalam kakak tu explain kat aku. Aku faham ah. Tapi kalau nak aku explain kat korang, memang tak ah hahaha. Untuk keterangan lanjut, korang gi visit the website.

Lepas 40 minutes dah habes, aku cakap dengan korang, baju kita basah gila weyh. Kalau perah, boleh kompol 1 baldi. Ok bedek. Sorry aku banyak exaggerate sey. K lah kalau perah pun boleh collect 1 gayung jer ah.

Kita settle minum air 1 cawan lagi before proceed to mandi. Dorang dah siap kan sabun. Sabun dorang bukan calang-calang punya dok. Sabun dorang tu kira ada tu benda ah apa eh. Aku lupa ah. Jap eh aku check website dia ...... oh it is enzymes. Haaaa....

Dah siap semua, sebelum kita ciao, kita kene minum air lagi. Ni air pulak called.... lupa lagi! Jap eh aku WA Mas and ask ...... oh fruit enzyme. Air dia ni buat aku terkejut! Sedap tu memang sedap tapi at 1st sip, aku macam anjat gergerl. Sharp sour taste. Tapi lama-lama ok ah. That is good for your digestion lor.

Panjang betul cerita aku. Pokoknyer I really love the sauna. Peluh sedap, badan ringan. Dah tu, aku pun tidur cepat! Usually it will be around 12midnight to 1am tapi semalam aku tidur 10ish. Tu pun tunggu Qiey pergi kerja. Kalau tak aku rasa I'll sleep way earlier.

Korang try ah kalau korang nak. Serious you guys will sweat it all out.

Jakarta 2015

Assalamualaikum.

10th October 2015
0930 JKT

Aku sekarang ni dalam kapal terbang sambil type ni draft. Aku ada business trip ah. Dekat jer Jakarta. Business jual tudung hahaha.

Takde lah, aku sajer tanya kawan aku satu ni, Fifie, kalau nak pergi weekend trip to KL. Kita pun tanya other girlfriends kalau any of them nak ikut. So Naimah pun agreed.

Tup tap kita decided to go JKT instead sebab KL that time was bad with haze. JKT tak effected cause the haze is from Sumatra and Kalimantan.

Planned late September tapi book flight last week. Bagus. Nasib tak mahal flight ticket. $117 for pergi balik. Aku pergi takde baggage, balik baru ada. Aku nyer baggage tu Cakra Khan ah.

So anyways we did not top up $10 to choose a seat. Weyh $10 boleh beli macam-macam dok kat Tanah Abang! Oh by the way this is my 2nd time going JKT.

Aku duduk row 13. Yey row yang luas kerana the exit door is here. Sebelah kanan aku apek. Baik sey dia sebab dia pinjam kan aku pen hahaha. Sebelah kiri pulak chickies. Bangsa cine and dia baca buku all the way.

Aku actually only had 2 hours of sleep. Aku on leave on Friday sebab nak settle orders. Aku ada 2 cakepop orders and 1 rainbow cake order. Rabak dok penat gila. Nasib aku message kawan aku to call me kalau aku tak message apa-apa by 0530 hours. Ah ah pagi sia!

So bila duduk jer dalam kapal terbang ni, it is 0800. Flight kita 0820 hours. Haha aku duduk jer terus tertidur geng. Aku tersadar cause ada announcement saying ada slight delay. It was already 0820. Slight lah sangat, at 0900 aku tersadar lagi, baru nak reverse then 0920 baru take off. Ah bagus, sengaja kan nak kasi aku 1 hour extra sleep? Ah thanks.

K aku dah sampai JKT ni. Be right back bebeh. Oh heh aku tak off handphone. Tiba-tiba dah landing. Anjat gergerl. Tapi aku letak flight mode ah.

1130 JKT

Burpppp! Alhamdulillah brunch settled. Kita makan ni lauk-pauk (tapi not all ah kan) abeh kira-kira total RP166,100 jer dok so roughly around $16.61 ah. Divide by 10,000 jer. Kalau nak kagi senang, ignore the last 3 digit and divide by 10.

Tadi kat airport ada pak supir fetch us. Nama dia Sukarno. Hahaha tak ah nama dia apa, aku lupa tapi ada karno karno jugak ah. Si Fifie yang book him. Nasib tak handsome. Kalau handsome confirm aku gedik. Hahahahahha!!

So he brought us to this Senang Restaurant lor. On the way to Tanah Abang, singgah sapedek. Sekarang sua kenyang, apa lagi, shopping time!!

1520 JKT

Kaki aku macam nak pecah dok shopping kat Tanah Abang. Kepala pun nak pecah. Dengan macet ni macam, mau rabakkk!

Aku shopping apa? Alah nothing much ah. Hahhahaha!! Serious nothing much for myself. Just 2 tops and a skirt. Yang lain semua baju Qiey and bapak aku lah, jubah for mak aku and MIL lah dan lain-lain. And also luggage bag! Memang aku plan datang sini nak beli bag.

Bila orang tanya kita asal mana, main pok jer Malaysia hahaha. Abeh ada yang mentak kita duit ringgit. Aku lesing kang, keluar ringgit terbang kat atas kepala dorang.

K serious ni jam mau rabak geng. Kita stuck 30 minutes sey! Kepala aku dah sakit tahap maksimaaaa! Rawrrr!

Oh part shopping tak ingat dunia. LOL.

2040 JKT

Actually tadi punya jam was caused by a stupid stage that took 1 lane. Tiba-tiba ada stage kat situ and ada performance. Tak faham aku. Dah lah ada dua lane jer. Apa kejadah lah dorang.

Pejam celik dah malammm... Tadi check in kita stay kat Morrisey Serviced Apartment. Cantikkk akak suka noh!! Lek kat bilik jap, solat then kita blah gi urut.

Sebelum gi urut ada 1 hour so kita lepak kat this cafe. It is actually a truck cafe. Cool dok! It is called Hobo Truck. So kita  sajer nak duduk-duduk alas perut. Sedap per the fries! Chicken dia tak fantastic sangat. The guys are friendly and they're just 1 week there.

So kita gi urut kat City Spa. Budak-budak yang urut tu semua kecik-kecik tapi urut dorang pei shiok! Satu badan dorang sental. And they use essential oils.

Lepas urut memang gerek cause you feel so light. Tapi during the session, stress sik. Stress apa tau. Stress tahan kentut hahahahah!!

11th October 2015
0815 JKT

Semalam malam lepas urut gi makan kat The Holy Crab. Holy shemolly power gedegak k kat sana. Aku makan dah macam babarian hahaha. It was seriously nice. A place not to skip if come JKT I suppose.

Lepas tu ingat nak balik tapi our pak supir cakap we go Monas kejap ah since it's Saturday night, the place will close at midnight.

Kepala aku dah macam nak meletop tapi aku ok jer ah. Sapu minyak sikit terus kurang. Part migraine hilang bila shopping kat sana lor. Hah!

Balik hotel almost 1am. Pack barang, wash up, gedebak gedebuk then tidurrrr....

Macam yer yer nak bangun pagi at 0600. Cukup time 0730 lah. Taklei bangun geng. Katil dah empok, pekene dengan aircon. Hah.

1830 JKT

I am not a breakfast person or a morning person. Tapi kalau pergi holiday, pagi lengit jugak ah but paksa bangun. And breakfast mesti mau rempuh. These are all mine. Hahaha!

Lepas breakfast kita naik tu pajai or apa lah tu untuk rounding that place. 15 minutes jer. The staff nama Hassan. Hensem deh! Hahaha! Tapi aku tak gedik. Betul! Sebab aku dah kekenyangan. Haha takde link eh.

Settled with packing and check out around 1 hour earlier. So Karsonoh fetched kita and off we go to have our delishhhh dessert. Oh Karsonoh tu lah pak supir kita. Haha aku dah ingat nama dia k! Dia macam car-kat-sana jadi Karsonoh hahahhahaha ok lame gilaaa!

Korang tengok ahhh barang baik ni!! Mau tak menggila?! Tengok menu jer dah keliru. Haiz sedap sangat crepe aku. Empuk! Tak manis sangat, just nice. Makan dengan Magnum, meletop!!

Dah happy, kita proceed gi Mangga Dua (MD). Menyesal ah turun sana. We should have gone to Thamrin City. Aku lupa lah pasal that mall! I thought it was MD that I went before. MD macam ramai gilaaa boleh pengsan aku. I think also because it is Sunday. Haiz wasted afew hours there.

Dah boring, kita call Karsonoh and we go to another mall Mangga 2 Square. Kat sana kita tak shopping barang. Kita shopping kat Carefour instead. Fifie gila borong teh sosro and maggi. Dekni nak simpan stock pun agak-agak lah weyh. Hahaha!! Abeh those maggi and teh all in lose pieces so kita request kotak.

Kau tahu staff yang tolong kita pack tu, dah kerja lembab. Kerek pulak tu. Fifie kasi tips of coins, member campak atas meja eh. Pala hotak. Gasak kau lah nak.

So kita siam dari sana and last stop before airport, kita singgah kedai cake! Aku dah takde duit sey. Sadded. Tapi bila dapat tahu boleh pakai card, aku apa lagi, grabbed 5 boxes! Aku suka lah brownies kat Indonesia ni. Very nice you know!

Now dalam kereta on the way to airport. Haiz cepat betol masa berlalu noh. Kita nyer flight at 2135 hours and will reach SG at midnight! Besok InshaaAllah aku MC hahahah!!

2230 JKT

Kita dah dalam flighttt... Dah on the way home nowww... Tengah terbang ni hah kat atas. Actually aku kene duduk sorang lagi, away from Naimah and Fifie but Naimah offered to sit alone instead. Yeay! Thank you Nekma! Walaupun kau irrit on this trip hahaha.

Aku tengah dengar lagu Tragedi October abeh bulan ni pun October. Haha okayyy...

Tak sabar nak sampai rumahhh tapi Qiey takde. Huhu. Member kerja malam. Balik aku akan campak bag 1 side dulu, wash up, solat and tidur. Tapi kan aku suspect aku akan tertidur dengan baju ni jugak hahahaha. Besok boleh settle ah unpacking. Gua confirm rabak sia.

Gona miss this trip man. It was really short yet we felt long because we started vair early yesterday and ended late today. I'll miss you girlsss!!

Thanks Fifie for bringing us to awesome food places, massage, hotel and get Karsonoh for us. Sayang kau! InshaaAllah kalau ada next trip, rajin kan lagi buat gini k hahaha.

Wassalam.
xx

PH

Assalamualaikum.

Aku sekarang ni dekat Pizzahut Angsana, Johor Bahru. Sambil menunggu mak aku pi solat, aku makan-makan sambil update blog lah yer.

Pertama sekali, aku nak bilang korang yang Wisely ni adalah adik Wally. Dia suka pakai baju polkadot. Tak macam Wally yang suka pakai stripes. Wisely ni cute ah orang nyer. So vote lah Wisely.

Korang dah buang 30 seconds baca paragraph before this hahaha.

*tet tet tet tet*

Damit aku lupa off alarm. Pukul 7 pagi geng. Nari PH lahhh! Kan ada undi! Cepat-cepat aku off alarm and force back to sleep. Kalau tak, alamat nyer aku tak akan tidur balik.

"Ica! Bangun! Kata nak pergi Johor!"

Grabbed my phone and whatttt?! It is only 9.30am. Urghhh!! Ok fine I gave myself 10 more minutes before aku bangun pergi mandi.

Parents aku tak tunggu aku sey. Dorang dah pergi dulu. Aku siap gedebak gedebuk, aku pun keluar ah. Qiey taknak pergi dengan aku jugak sebab member baru balik kerja pagi tu and tengah tidur. Ok fine I go myself lorrrr....

Dah sampai sekolah  (the venue that I needa do my voting), tunjuk IC and the card, jalan masuk, orang sebut nama aku, aku gi vote lepas tu blah. Balik ah. Voting tak sampai 10 minute, dapat 1 hari public holiday. Apa lagik, masuk JB lor. Hakhakhak.

(Takde officers handsome kat tempat aku. Minah-minah jambu pun takde. Yang ada cuma aku ah.)

Actually aku nak ajak mak aku gi salon kat Pearlista jer. Alah si Nura J punya salon kat Eunos situ. Beh mak aku cakap, "Kat Johor lagi murah lah. Kita pergi Johor sudah lah."

Padahal aku nak belanja tau. So since mak aku baik nak aku belanja lagi murah, ok ah sembarang haha.

So macam biasa kita naik 85 depan rumah straight gi Yishun. Kat Yishun naik bus AC7 (bayar $2.50) & straight gi checkpoint. Memandangkan PH kan, ICA bukak lebih counter. Very good sia ICA, very fast, very efficient.

FYI, Ica is my nick my family calls me huahuahua.

So bila dah lepas tu immigration, turun nak pergi naik lagi 1 bus pergi Malaysia punya checkpoint, makdikau, ribut bro! Should have taken a photo meng. Queue jer ah naik bus 170/160. Perjalanan dari Yishun to Woodlands checkpoint diri dalam bus around 30 minit. Ni kali dapat duduk dalam bus 170, heaven sia. Hahaha! Perangai orang tua tau.

So kita pun pi lah tu salon. Mak aku selalu pergi sana dengan clan tai-tai dia. So aku pun try ah. Nama kedai Hair.Scalp by V Team. Owner dia nama Iefa, 29 years old lady. She did my hair. Friendly max. Member tengah ngandung abeh kasi aku berkat. Haha cute!

So settle ah gunting, treatment and dye. Scalp aku rabak dia cakap. Suspect ada spiderweb, sarang semut, kueh tart & bantal peluk saloma. Massive.

Gedebak gedebuk aku sign up package. Aku memang pantang kene cocok. Murahlah sak! Birthday month lagi dapat 50%. Aboh wait for what?! Get my mom a package also
And we 2 are satisfied! Wooppidoo!

Type punya type, pause kejap, sekarang aku dah on the way home dalam kereta. Biasa jugak gi Larkin naik kereta balik. Genap 4/6 people for 1 car. 1 kepala $15, ok ah dok. Hantar sampai rumah per. Boleh pulak sama kereta dengan kawan aku hahaha.

Dah ah nanti balik lek lepak depan tv, kita tengok siapa handle mana eh. Aku undi siapa? Mana boleh beritahu. Undi anda rahsia perrr... Hehehe!

P/S Rambot aku lawa wahahaha!!

Just That PBG Moment

Assalamualaikum.

You know, I've been watching ALOT of movies lately. All watched streaming online, at work. Aku ada magic on how to watch. Mana boleh bilang korang. Kan magic!

So sekarang ni aku tengah tengok cerita Unexpected. About a teacher who unexpectedly got pregnant. She was not prepared for it cause 1, she's not married and 2, everything happened too fast. And there's a scene she eats waffles with peanut butter. I thought it would be nice to have it now too. Prima Deli punya waffles. Gila weyh! Terasa kat tekak!

Anddd talking about cravings, recently I had the worst cravings ever in my life. No I am not pregnant. Cravings for the upcoming menses. Tell me about it.

You know how sad it is? Not sad because I have cravings but not pregnant cause I wana get pregnant. You guys know I don't care if I'm pregnant or not. It is sad because I have cravings but not pregnant means I am just having PBG moment. Mampoz this is complicated. LOL.

Yah lah, I am sad because I have cravings because I am in the PBG clan. Like not pregnant but craving? You're serious?

You know how hard it is to control my food intake? You know how hard it is to stop eating when the food is so freaking nice? You know how hard it is to say no to rice?

Damit! I am so obsessed now. And it sucks!

How I wish I am that girl who eats whatever she wants and don't freaking care how she looks like. But I can't be that girl cause I know I won't be happy looking at myself. Oh God Annisa, what the hell.

I'm sorry, I am just having this moment of wanting to talk to myself.

Oh look, it is 12.57pm. Time for lunch. And no, I am not going for lunch. I am just going to have a sandwich alone at my workdesk. Screw me.

Shopping In Daze

Assalamualaikum.

Korang pernah tak beli beli beli benda tanpa sedari lepas tu bila dah settle transactions all, aleh-aleh SNAP, you thought what had just happened. Macam kene pukau.

Hahahaha tu lah maksud aku "Shopping In Daze." And it just happened to me again yesterday. Urghhh sucks man!

I was planning to go to Uniqlo to just get an inner. You know those inner top where you wear under your clothings cause you feel like your clothings are abit sheer. And being a minah ferring, I gotta consider that man.

So yeah I was in the train, minding my own business, scrolling through Instagram and saw photos of me being tagged and then I just realised that my eyes are so bad lah. Those bags under my eyes better be Gucci.

So ok lah, sebelum singgah Uniqlo I thought I might pay Bodyshop a visit and see what cream they can recommend me.

"Are you a member?"

"Erm I don't think so. I can't remember."

"Oh ok. If you're not a member, you purchase $50 & above and you can be a member for free."

Andddd I ended up buying a diffuser and the fragrance oil. Great job Annisa!

"Hi! Welcome to Uniqlo."

I went straight up to the inner section. Upon walking towards the cashier, I thought hey why not just look around and see what pants they have in stock. New range perhaps?

And yes! They have the new range of ankle length pants which comes in alottttt of colours. I tried 1. Yeah just 1.

It fits perfectly!! The cutting is fantastic. Nice to wear with long blouses. Not hugging much. The length is just nice. Well I'm short so ankle length pants is a keeper for me.

I stood infront of the rack, looking at allll the pants there. The patterns. The colours. Why is it so hard for me to choose?!! Ok fine I'll take the blue. Just 1.

Off I go to the counter and accidently turned my head to the bedroom pants section. I tell you, my bedroom pants are 90% from Uniqlo. They have new designs! New colours!

"This is nice hor but left only 1 piece man. And only L size."

I heard someone said to someone else. I saw which design she pointed. Indeed super nice! I grabbed it and walk away.

I walked to the cashier, detour to the ankle length pants section, grabbed another colour, walked fast to the cashier, paid quickly, walked out the shop and SNAP, what had just happened?

Perfect!

P/S I just bought another 3 pieces of clothes from Poplook during lunch time yesterday. How much I've already spent in a day? God bless me.

Size Doesn't Matter... Sometimes

Assalamualaikum.

So how have you guys been doing? Syawal dah habes, back to normal weekends i.e no more raya visiting and start to go for weddings. Seriously, every week mesti adaaaa jer jempotan eh. Macam pelik gitu. Where does all these weddings come from man? HAHA!

During raya, there were alot of open houses. So korang berpegang kepada prinsip "Makan jer! Raya mah!"?

Well I did. BUT not eat sampai pengsan ah. I eat at EVERY house but I just make sure I eat super small portion. Keyword: Jamah.

Dude, I gained alot and kept getting those "Gemok eh kau sekarang" sentence for every house I visit for the past 2 years. And that is certainly not something nice for me to hear. Or anybody else. Huhu.

Even my BIL said that. "Kak, you gemok sey." I hate you Fauzy.

Adik aku jangan cakap ah. Asik kata aku gemok pendek. Such an idiot. I hate you also Ahmad.

But this year, all I got was "Eh dah kurus per kau." To be honest, I loveee hearing that. Tak tahu kalau dorang mean it or not hahaha. But you guys better mean it.

Bila aku start jogging and control my food intake, people actually mock me. Not all but some. Dorang cakap tak payah lah nak diet blablabla. Abeh cakap aku gemok! Apakah?!

Majority always said "Takpe ah babe, gemok pun atleast kau happy." Fact is, I'm not. I mean yes I am happy with my life but not with my body. You guys understand me right?

Aku tak suka bila aku in denial. Gemok is awesome lah. Gemok pun suami aku sayang lah. Tapi lepas tu tengok gambar lama and cakap aku rindu being skinny and ask myself when can I ever be skinny again.

No Annisa, it doesn't work that way! When you miss being skinny, work it. Don't just whine while stuffing yourself with donuts!

I was so kudut, 39kg kinda kudut. My asshole (pardon me) ex boyfriend (who is also a jerk - I just hafta add this) called me papan. You think? Told you he's an asshole jerk. Dutchebag! Ok I'll stop.

I used to be an XS. I can even wear Zara kids clothes! Which I actually always wore last time haha. They're so cheap and cute lah! Then I grow to be an S. Not an ass. That's my ex boyfriend. I mean size S. Slowly now I'm an M for some and L for little some. Heh.

Yesterday, Qiey's aunt said to me, "Lawa dress kau. Kau pakai size S eh?"

Oh. My. God. She thinks I'm a size S! I know she didn't make fun of me. I know she's sincere. Hahaha! I can seriously kiss her at that moment and treat her teh tarik or something.

But I whispered, "No. Ni size L." The word 'L' was a silent one. Like... oh you know what I mean. And then I continued "Ni cutting kecik ah."

HAHAHA omg shuttup Annisa!!

Ok ok aku tahu aku takde lah kurus bak super model tapi atleast thinner than the past 2 years lah kan.

Pokok nyer, aku nak cakap dengan korang, kalau korang gained alot of weight and not happy, please do something about it. Stop whining & stop crying while looking into the mirror. Get your ass up and work it out people! Don't get demoralized when people mock you. The 1 losing weight is you. The 1 gona look good is you. So screw them!

For the record, I did not cry while looking into the mirror. I just said "makkau gemok per aku!". Hahahaha!!

Ok haffa great workout. Control what you eat cause what you eat is what you are. No, don't eat a model. Please.

Wassalam.

Camat Ayi Yaya!

Assalamualaikum.

Comel eh title aku. Haha mentak kene jotos. Dah hari keempat Syawal ni geng. Selamat hari raya yer! Maaf zahir batin. Semoga amalan kita diterima Allah swt. Kepada sesiapa yang tak beramal, semoga korang mula as soon as possible sebelum terlambat. Don't say I never remind hor.

Amacam so far raya, gerek? 3 hari bro, Friday Saturday Sunday. Hamboi raya sakan nampak! Aku ni 4th day pun tak kerja hehe. Sebab pakcik I balik dari umrah uolls . Alhamdullillah both pakcik and wife safely returned. Semoga dapat umrah yang mabrur.

Kepada korang yang first time beraya dengan suami/isteri/anak, congratulations! Kepada yang masih single or takde anak, hahaha dah kene soalan cepu emas belum?

"Oi bila nak kahwin?"

"Dah ada isi?"

So far aku tak pernah kene soalan bila nak kahwin sebab aku kan awet muda. Selalu orang ingat aku ni budak-budak masih belajar. LOL. Ada sekali ni ada 1 makcik nak kasi aku duit, dia pass kat adik aku and said, "Eh nah, ni kasi kan kat adik nya." while pointing towards me. Wakakaka epic!

Tapi part dah kahwin, and part tanya dah ada anak tu, selalu ah kene. Tahun ni dah tahun ke 3 aku beraya ada suami. First 2 years orang tanya ah tapi this year takde orang tanya dok! Serious dok! Aku tertunggu-tunggu jugak asal takde orang tanya. Mungkin dorang boring ah tanya soalan sama, abeh tetap jawapan aku "belum ada rezeki" so dorang pun malas nak tanya. Hahahahaha. Gelak gelak. Kipidap ah makciks! Good job!

Raya ada lagi 20++ lagi so enjoy ah k. Jangan lupa grab the chance to puasa enam. And jangan lupa siapa yang hutang puasa tu, bayar cepat-cepat! Ni suka tau bayar last minute. Kalau apa-apa jadi, macam mana? Bukan du'a kan yang tak baik. Ni kalau jer. Heh.

Wassalam.

Pak Mat Pom Pom Pom

Assalamualaikum.

Hari ini tertulis sebuah sejarah untuk aku. Hahaha. Ok kalau korang nak hint, dah tertulis kat title. Bukan pasal Pak Mat lah. Pasal pekak hahaha.

Last Friday, aku demam and batuk. So aku pergi lah amik MC. Dah tu pulak telinga kiri aku ni blocked. It has been blocked for quite sometimes ah but still bearable tapi that Friday kira dah rabak sebab aku korek telinga and tertekan dalam sangat. I cannot hear AT ALL. Ok fine, can hear but veeeeery soft. Lepas tu rasa berdengung.

So since dah jumpa doctor, aku pun bilang lah pasal telinga aku. Mana tahu kot kot masuk kumbang ke. Doctor tengok, dia cakap ear wax dah cover aku punya ear drum. Dia kasi aku ear drop jer lah.

Aku pakai ear drop tu macam tak berfungsi langsung! Makin irritated lagi ada sebab the oil macam bertakung.

Aku sampai ano ear candling sendiri kat rumah k. 2 days straight. Bila bukak tu paper kan, nampak taik telinga, aku macam "terpegun". Banyak nyer! And berkepul-kepul. Hahahhahah!! Kalau aku tahu, aku amik gambar clearly for keep sake. LOL.

Nari dah hari keempat aku terasa pekak. Tak selesa tahap nak cabut telinga and ganti yang baru. I cannot take it ah. Ingat nak pergi balik doctor tau but after afew research on Google and Youtube, ok I resort to doing it myself.

Ingat nak ear candling lagi tapi after 2 times, aku baru nak baca about ear candling. It is stated that ear candling is not good and try to avoid it. Damn. Ok fine. Mayyybe can still do but once a month perhaps? Cause kalau tengok result, memang memuaskan lah!

I prepared a spray bottle that filled with warm water. I turned the nozzle to make sure it sprays 1 line. I cannot see my earhole kan so aku sprayyyyy jer lah. Asal boleh shoot.

Spray spray spray spray spray spray and aaaaahhhhhh suddenly all so clear. Aku terpekik Alhamdullillah dalam toilet and LOL to myself. Aku tak tahu berapa kali aku cakap "Thank You Allah." The feeling was beyond words ah. Amazing is understatement.

Kan selalu apa-apa kita taknak dengar, kita akan cakap "buat pekak". Ni dah literally pekak, seram joy! Ya Robb. Nikmah kedengaran diambil Allah selama 4 hari jer aku dah risau. Ok promise, from now onwards, aku dah taknak "buat pekak". Apa-apa pun, aku akan dengar. Masuk kiri keluar kanan ah kalau taknak hiraukan sangat heh.

Aku terus amik wudhu' & solat sunnat syukur lepas solat Isha'. Till the extend ok! Macam dapat award apa or good news apa. Hahaha!!

Ok people, lesson learnt, jangan korek telinga and jangan cakap "buat pekak" sebab kata-kata itu du'a. Hehehe.

Blog ni takde makna untuk korang tapi bermakna sesangat untuk aku!! Hahaha!!

Wassalam.

Yey! Yey! Duit Raya!

Assalamualaikum.

Cute kan sampul duit aku! First time nampak terus excited max. Bought it from Carousell by seller @hariraya. Go check him out. Ada more designs yaw.

Anywaysss part masih kecik boleh ah kita nak "Yey! Yey! Duit raya!" Sekarang? Kalau tak $300 keluar aku rasa tak sah kot.

Don't get me wrong, not complaining dude. Aku suka sey kasi duit raya. Mungkin sebab aku ni pemurah. Hahaha! Suka tengok muka budak-budak yang comey senyum lebar bila dorang dapat sampul duit dari kita. Tapi that occurs to small kids jer ah. Yang dah besar memang tak cute langsung. Hahaha!

Niat nak memberi tu mesti ikhlas tapi kan geng, kalau mak dorang start with "Ah cepat! Cepat! Salam Sipulan.", aku dah tahu ni mesti ada motif. Suruh salam sebab.... "Ah nanti dapat duit raya!" Terus down bro dengar tu macam.

Dah tu takpe. Misalan anak dia 14 orang, yang ikut beraya cuma 4, "Eh anak aku lagi 10 tak dapat datang." Siap kasi alasan asal dektu tak ikut dekni tak ikut. Kalau stop situ jer ok ah. "Taknak kirim?" Haaaaaa joke!

Selalunya memang aku automatic will kirim tapi kalau dah kene gitu, kau rasa? Mesti ah kirim jugak. Keikhlasan tu kurang sikit. Hahaha!

Kan aku cakap budak-budak comey senyum lebar dapat duit. Tapi kalau dorang bukak depan kita and buang sampul tu depan kita, adomak remuk hati ni melihat. Yer lah budak-budak, mana tahu kan. 

Dorang tak tahu lah kita kene didik. Ni tidak. Dah nampak anak dia buat gitu, dia boleh ketawa!

I think before anak dia start doing so, they should educate the kids. And pantau anak tu. Kalau nampak dia nak buat gitu, cepat-cepat go to that child. Nak snatch the envelope ke nak marah ke, lantak kau. Pokoknyer educate.

Ini semua adab. You know adab? Yes adab. Dah macam konon jadi satu kewajipan pulak orang kasi duit time raya. Ni semua kan ikut kemampuan masing-masing.

Maaf lah kalau aku cakap "mak" jer dari tadi sebab memang pun mak-mak yang camtu. Bapak-bapak aku rasa tak kot. Never experienced the bapak yang sebok mentak duit raya segalak.

So anyways, sekarang ni, yang ada anak-anak, please eh. Kalau kene kat aku tahun ni, aku bukan kasi sampul duit. Sampul surat A4 size, dalam aku letak $1. Ok ah boleh buat beli menan yang krek-krek tu.

Wassalam.

Teguran Yang Memberi Impak

Assalamualaikum.

Hamboi title aku kali ni, macam serious jer. Takde mana yang serious sangat lah. Nak cerita tentang seseorang yang sukaaaa tegur aku and last-last memberi kesan yang thorbaik.

Tak lain tak bukan, orang itu adalah aruwah pakcik aku, Wak Cah. And the reason why I opened a topic about him is because, today marked exactly 5 years of his demise.

I grew up with his family very closely cause my mom has been his helper since my cousin (his last child) was still small until she's married with children. Lama tu bro!

So everytime bila habes sekolah, aku tak balik rumah. Aku will balik rumah pakcik aku. Bila mak aku done with her chores, kita balik sama-sama.

Wak Cah ni garang. Strict sangat. Tapi dia suka jugak ajak aku pergi JB. Dulu kecik-kecik tak takut sangat dengan Wak Cah. Tapi bila dah besar, aku selalu macam nervous nak jumpa Wak Cah. Sebab yes, Wak Cah suka ah tegur-tegur aku. Ok fine memang aku nakal tapi aku nakal baik gitu ah. Hahaha!

Wak Cah selaluuuuu nasihat kan aku supaya jangan buat ibu aku nangis. Dengar cakap ibu ayah aku. Jangan gitu jangan gini. Kadang-kadang aku rimas lah pulak dengan nasihat dia. Asik benda samaaaa jer dia cakap.

Tapi kan beb, lama-kelamaan, Wak Cah macam dah jarang ah kasi nasihat. Time tu umur aku dah jejak 20+ gitu ah. Mungkin pada dia, he knows his limit ah eh. Wak Cah tried to nasihat during my teenage life. Korang tahu ah part teenager ni kan memang haiz susah nak cakap. Hahaha.

Aku ingat lagi 1 peristiwa ni last before dia lay back, he called my parents and talk to them about me. Balik, aku kene lecture ah dengan parents aku. From there aku macam ok that's it, aku kene rilek sikit and try to change.

1 morning, we received a call saying Wak Cah dah meninggal dunia. Wak Cah tengah duduk kat kerusi sambil tunggu nak solat subuh with his wife. Dari hari tu, aku rasa aku kehilangan orang yang amat mustahak dalam hidup aku ah. Aku rasa macam....tak tahu ah macam apa. Aku terus nangis tak terhenti.

Walaupun Wak Cah orang nya strict tapi dia saaaaangat penyayang and saaaaangat baik. Dia tolong keluarga aku sedaya upaya. Family aku was not doing well dulu but he was always there to help us. Aku dapat rasa Wak Cah sayang aku macam aku ni anak dia sendiri.

Haaaa kau, meleleh-leleh air mata aku type ni. Fooh. *take a deep breath*

Wak Cah seseorang yang paling alim yang aku kenal. And I know he is in a better place. Best place indeed.

Tak pernah terputus aku du'a kan Wak Cah. Kalau boleh, Wak Cah is 1 of the person aku nak jumpa lagi kat syurga.

Wak Cah, thank you for everything. I hope you're proud of me now cause I am a very good girl now. I miss you Wak Cah.

Wassalam.

Keep It Behind Closed Doors

Assalamualaikum.

Hiiii.... Panas panas panas! Sekarang malam kalau tidur, kipas sekuat helicopter pun boleh berpeluh.

Actually yang panas sekarang aku nak cakap bukan pasal cuaca tetapi pasal......yes you are right! About the man who was caught cheating with another girl by his wife only after 6 weeks of marriage. Boomz!

Kkk before korang nak judge aku, ni disclaimer k. Aku start dengan salam tau so FYI, this is not a gossip post. I have something to share yang ada khaitan dengan this incident. Ready to read? Ok lets gone!

I have a friend, Rila (not her real name). A close friend actually. She has known this Akim (not his real name) for 9 years and decided to get married. 3 months later, they went for a divorce. Nak tahu apasal? Because the guy cheated on her. Infact he has been cheating even before they got married.

Fyi, the scandalcame to their wedding too. Sama case lah dok!

Devastated indeed but did Rila choose to open up her story on social media? No. She only shared with us (her closest friends and family behind closed doors) for what had happened.

Yes the process of separation took like a year cause Akim tak turun for counseling. And bila turun pun nanti putar belit cerita and blamed Rila for this and that. But eventually their marriage still ended.

Imagine if she opened up in public. Dia post muka Akim tengah peluk dengan scandal. Dia bilang 1 dunia Akim punya family side Akim walaupun Akim salah. Dia bilang seluruh umat yang Akim buang barang dia keluar dari bilik and dia kene kutip barang-barang dia. Imagine dia turun kat tempat Akim dating perempuan tu and serang dorang and pekik-pekik and maki-maki dorang.

Sounds familiar eh. Everything that girl told the world, it happened exactly to my friend.

Tapi Alhamdulillah Rila tu masih waras and imaan kuat. Bila Rila kene marah ke apa dengan Akim and family, Rila kept quiet. She is 1 strong woman that aku respect sangat sangat. Bak kata pepatah, biar orang buat kita, jangan kita buat orang.

Now that is redha and pasrah. Tak payah nal malu kan orang lain, tak payah nak kecoh 1 kampong, tak payah nak serang terbalikkan tray segalak. And guess what? She's happily married now with a better guy (InshaaAllah).

So now my 2 cents. Aku tahu 2 cents tak laku tapi I am still giving it. I know, when we're angry, we'll say things that we don't mean to. Cakap main lepas jer. Tapi sebelum buat perkara macam gitu, kita rilek jap. Istighfar. Amik nafas. For a second, think just about the consequences. Jangan ikut nafsu.

Sekarang cerita dah pun ke semberang tambak. Muka kau, suami kau and scandal semua dah terpampang. Adoi.... Siapa yang malu nanti? Ni bukan antara korang 3 jer tau. This involves everybody which means each and every family.

Malu aside, now siapa yang tanggung dosa? Dosa orang yang kutuk laki kau, dosa orang kutuk kau jugak sebab kau bukak aib suami kau, dosa orang kutuk perempuan scandal tu, dosa orang share sana sini cerita korang, blablabla yadayadayada. Kata-kata orang mengutuk tu semua kau tanggung dosa. Kau mampu?

So yeah, just few more words here, think before you act. Sekian.

Wassalam.

P/S Aku taknak comment berlebihan about how they handle their problem (ie exposed on social media, serang menyerang, balas membalas). Nasi dah jadi bubur. Kalau bubur masjid yang sedap ok jugak lah. Ambil semua sebagai ikhtibar. Jangan lah post online hal-hal macam gini. Nanti menyesal bro.

Beautiful & Perfection

Assalamualaikum.

"Annisa today you wear this, you look very pretty. Yesterday also."

1 morning a colleague said that to me. FYI my colleague is a female. Jangan jealous k husband. And padahal I wear like this (dresses or tops with skirts) everyday. Suspect seri Ramadhan ah.

Kecantikkan itu subjective. Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. Pada aku, aku ni ok ok jer. Dengan jendol, hidung bawang, gigi jongang (sounds hideous eh LOL) tapi mungkin pada orang lain, aku macam cantik bak bidadari gitu ah. Hahaha melampau eh!

Ok ok pujian aside. Aku cuma nak ingat kan diri aku dahulu, sesungguhnya semua ni *points myself head to toe* milik Allah. Alhamdullillah Allah pinjam kan aku kesempurnaan kat dunya ni. Mungkin sekejap. Mungkin lama sikit. I don't know. *shrugs*

Bila aku tengok orang-orang yang kurang keupayaan, aku sedihhh sangat. Apa agaknyer yang ada dalam fikiran dorang eh. Apa agaknyer dorang rasa bila dorang tengok kita yang Alhamdullillah cukup sifat. Mesti ada sikit rasa terkilan dorang nak hidup macam kita.

Or maybe not sebab dorang so innocent and sentiasa bersyukur. Especially no commitments.

I've been following these instagrammers like above & some others (tak ingat nick dorang) and I am so touched by how they love their child so much eventhough the child was born with less capabilities. And in their eyes, their child is the most perfect human being on earth. MashaaAllah.

But really, just look at them. How can someone be sooo adorable!!

Aku tak pernah be in close contact with a down syndrome person until this 1 particular day. I joined my friend and her cousins for dinner and 1 of them is a down syndrome girl.

She's 2 years younger than me so 19 lah. Hehehe ok ok she's 27 . Aku tengok jer dia makan, dia senyum, dia ketawa. Amik-amik gambar, happy being silly. Hidup dia bagai sempurna and macam tak ada apa-apa yang kosong and kurang. And you know what? She is infact a very beautiful girl.

Tapi aku pasti, orang-orang macam dorang ni ada kelebihan masing-masing. Allah is great and merciful. May Allah give all of them strength to face this test. Amiin.

And I give full respect to parents who have these special needs children. May Allah also give you guys the strength to raise these children with lotsa love. Amiin.

So how blessed are we to be born with little flaws? Super mega blessed I hope.

Wassalam.

Selamat Berpuasaaaaa!!

Assalamualaikum.

Tadi pagi hujan sey bila tengah siap for work. Part-part hujan ni memang lengit ah nak pergi kerja. Urat-Urat malas semua dah terkeluar. Tapi taknak layan sangat ah, pergi jugak kerja, naik cab hehe.

What? Dah lama k aku tak pergi kerja naik cab. Serious dah lama. Aku nak bedek korang buat apa? Aleh-aleh defensive huahuahua.

Part-part aku cepat siap, senang gila weyh book taxi. Aku tiba kat kerja 8.30am. Apakah? Punya lah siang. Mak aku bungkus kan prata and Polar puff. Pekena pulak dengan teh, fooh baik! Lunch kene makan cereal jer ah sebab breakfast tak sehat langsung!

Aku actually nak cakap pasal Ramadhan tau. Boleh menceceh pasal benda lain. Ok so anyways besok malam dah start tarawih geng. Lusa dah start puasa. Korang dah ready belum? Aku? InshaaAllah.

Frankly, every time nak masuk Ramadhan, aku rasa nervous. Nervous sebab takut aku tak dapat jumpa Ramadhan lah. Macam tak ready, 50-50 gitu ah, antara hidup atau tidak (nak cakap mati takut heh). Allah. Tapi InshaaAllah tahun ni aku dapat jumpa lagi Ramadhan.

Ramadhannnn... Ramadhannn.... Ramadhan Ya Habib. (cue Maher Zain's song).

Ramaiiiii yang suka bulan Ramadhan (apart from Syawal ah heh) sebab Ramadhan ni bulan yang senang untuk kita collect pahala sey. Ibadah yang kita buat semua berlipat ganda.

Bukan berlipat baju eh. Tu lepas angkat jemuran dah kering.

Nak buat ibadah punya lah senang. Easy flow. Solat, takde hal ah. Especially bangun subuh. Solat sunnah kalau boleh pun nak conquer. Bangun tahajjud macam takde halangan. Nak ngaji? Anytime anywhere man. Tak rasa ngantuk, boleh baca berpage-page. Kalau boleh nak khatam within a month tapi frankly, aku selalu gagal sey. Takpe, this year cuba lagi. Tarawih, taknak miss. Either kat mejid or kat rumah, mana yang sempat ah. Ramadhan lah yang kita selalu dapat duduk dengan family makan sama-sama.

Imagine kita dapat jumpa Ramadhan abeh taknak take this opportunity, wasted bro. Allah kasi kita chance to cover up our lack of ibadah in previous months. Allah kasi kita kesenangan untuk buat benda positive sebab Dia lock semua syaitan. Serious rugi beb kalau kita passed by Ramadhan tapi kita sia-siakan.

Dulu zaman jahiliyah memang aku rasa banyak kerugian. Fasting for the sake of fasting. Tobat tobat. Sekarang umur dah meningkat, memang patut pun berubah. Allah. Syukur sangat Allah kasi aku peluang untuk berubah and aku mendapat hidayah.

Dengan itu, aku nak menutup tirai kamar by apologising to you guys. Maaf kan aku dari hujung rambut ke hujung kuku kaki. Kalau aku ada terkasar bahasa especially time bergurau, jangan lah ambil hati yer. Aku actually gurau biasa jer tapi korang tu jer sensitip sangat. Heh.

And kalau aku ada post something yang korang terasa, aku mentak maaf. Aku post benda semua untuk diri aku dahulu. Lepas tu kalau korang nak terasa, aku taklei cakap pa per lah kan. Hahaha!

Ni mentak maaf ke apa ni? Hahaha!

Ok ok jujur aku cakap, ikhlas dari hati. Maaf zahir batin yer semua. Don't worry, aku memang dah maafkan semuaaaaa orang everytime sebelum tidur. Yer lah mana tahu kot kot besok tak bangun.

Selamat berpuasa semuaaaaaaaaa!! Ramadhan mubarak! Yang tak puasa tu, cuba lah puasa, tak takut dosa ke? Ok bye!

Wassalam.

P/S Posters are from Google image

Suami Ku Itu Adalah Suami Ku Dan Bukan Suami Mu

Assalamualaikum.

So nice to be able to type on a real keyboard. Haha takde lah, usually aku post a blog, I posted via my phone. Tapi yang tak best, takde auto correct and takde auto capital. Terpaksa lah picit extra key ie the shift key. And spelling kalau salah pun, hentam saja lah.

Aku baru habes tengok online movie by the way. Cinderella. My ever favourite Disney Princess. Suka sangat movie tuuu! It brought me back to my childhood moment. Aku asik tersengeh jer tengok movie tu especially part the fairy God mother evolving Cinderella and the pumpkin and mouse and goose and lizards. Hahaha!

To me, Prince Charming is the most handsome Disney prince, hence the name. Padahal he is just a cartoon character sey. Hahaha! Choosing Richard Madden as the character is indeed a great choice. Heh. Choosing Lily James pun kene sangat. Our similarities, we have bucks tooth! Sadly that is the only similarites we have. LOL. She's skinny and pretty and blonde and has sharp nose. Iyer lah hidung aku kan bawang yang selalu dipersendakan.

Aku asik lupa nak press the shift key. Annoying please!

So speaking of prince charming, sambil aku type ni, prince charming aku ada kat sebelah aku ni sekarang. Charming sangat sampai boleh buat lagu berirama bila tidur (read: dengkur and grind teeth!!). Dengkur tu still ok ah. Part grinding teeth tu, aku macam nak cabut jer gigi dia!

1st ever post aku cakap yang aku nak masuk 4 tahun kahwin dengan Qiey kan. Sometimes aku tak tahu macam mana kita boleh tahan dengan perangai each other. I am not the dream wife I must say. And Qiey, well everyone has flaws BUT he is the perfect match for me that Allah sent. I guess. Hahahaha!!

Aku tak ingat ah tahun bila kita kenal. Was in 2007? Or 2008 eh? Aku rasa 2008 ah. Tapi apa aku ingat, Qiey added me up on MSN. Dulu aku active online. Madang carik orang nak kacau.

So I approached him and asked who he is. Member nak step secretive. Klaka per bro. Dah add orang beh step secretive. Jotos kang. Dia cakap dia senior aku kat ITE. Aku suruh dia send over gambar, and I swear I can't recall him. Aku rasa macam dia tak pernah wujud gitu kat sekolah kita. Dia cakap dia dah lama spot aku. Dia cakap kawan dia shiok kat aku so dia pun taknak potong jalan ah. I know some of his friends but not him ley. FYI, sampai sekarang aku tak ingat dia from ITE sey hahaha.

As much as I am concerned, aku dulu kat skola selekeh kot. Aku pakai skirt for like 2-3 months jer lepas tu aku rimas so aku pakai seluar. Seluar aku pulak besar gedabak. Selalu nyer aku fold to my ankle. Aku pernah jatuh and seluar aku koyak. Aku tetap pakai seluar tu, tak jahit, tak beli baru. Baju aku ronyok seribu. Aku tak pernah gosok. Main bola, lasak, berpeluh-peluh masuk class. Memekak jer selalu and lepak kat tangga and eh buruk lah aku. Tu pun boleh jadi perhatian orang. I am flattered. LOL!

Alas we contact via phone.Tu pun dia tak mentak aku number tau. Dia mentak member aku who is member dia jugak ah. Cekik darah kan!

(Gambar exactly 5 years ago. Terjumpa kat FB.)

Tup tap tup tap, kita jadi couple. Less than 2 years, kita pun tunang. It was on my mom's birthday, 20th December 2009. 1 year 10 months later, kita kahwin ie on 09.10.11. Wahhh lincah per masa berlalu. Macam-macam dugaan kita lalui. Iyer lah sedangkan lidah boleh tergigit, apatah lagi suami isteri. Suka tau aku pakai peri bahasa ni hahaha!

Alamakkk battery laptop left 8% lah pulak. Jap eh be right back. Nak charge!

*1 minute later*

Ok I'm back.

Kalau nak cakap pasal du'a yang wajib in my list lah eh, aku selalu du'a supaya Allah kekal kan rasa cinta dalam hati kita. Jadi kan perkahwinan kita yang pertama dan terakhir. Jumpa kan kita balik di syurga. Jauh kan kita dari fitnah. Selalu limpahkan rezki, barakah, sakinah, warahmah, mawaddah dalam perkahwinan kita.

Tapi kan babe, ni serious. Kalau aku pergi dulu, advise him to get married again. Tapi aku rasa tak payah advise dia kot. Dia mesti nak kahwin lagi. LOL!

Memang kadang-kadang Qiey buat aku wiejgvhinervyhcsotn tapi iyer lah, tak orang tak kita kan. Aku pun kadang-kadang buat dia rasa grhgvnghscmsdhovr jugak hehehehe. We don't seem to be together always tapi bila kita dapat keluar berduaan, aku rasa nikmah dia macam extra gitu. Walaupun dia tak shower aku with gifts, kadang-kadang kalau dia bawak balik something small pun aku happy. Especially if it is foodddd!! He is the least romantic guy I've known hahaha tapi kalau ada surprise, memang swi! Tapi jarang sangat the surprise. He should do it more ah. No need often ah, just more. Tolong beritahu dia k. Thanks!

On top of that, aku syukur yang suami aku ni ada asas ugama. He doesn't hafta be an ustaz but aku suka kalau dia imaam kan solat kita. Suka aku tengok kalau dia berdu'a lepas solat. Suka aku dengar dia ngaji lepas solat. Well tak semerdu mana lah hahaha tapi pokok nya, dia ngaji dengan lancar.

Thank you husband for everything includind making me mad hahaha.

Iyer lah iyer lah aku stop sekarang. Alah orang nak sentimentel sikit pun tak boleh. Iyer lah bye lah.

Wassalam.

Kalau Aku Yang Pergi Dulu

Assalamualaikum.

Last week member aku update kita yang Sabah ada earthquake. Ingat all are safe but little did we know, 8 Singaporean lives were taken and majority are 12 years old.

2 nights ago member aku lagi 1 pulak WA kita kat groupchat telling us Ashmi Roslan meninggal dunia. 34 years old local artiste passed away due to heart attack, he fell and loss of blood.

All gone too soon. Young chaps. Tu yang Allah nak ingat kan kita yang Dia boleh tarik nyawa kita tak ikut umur.

Aku tak sanggup kehilangan orang aku sayang. Actually kita semua lah tak sanggup. Tak boleh imagine ahhh. Aku selalu harap aku yang pergi dulu jadi aku tak payah rasa sakit tapi selfish eh to think like that.

Kalau aku pergi melawat orang meninggal, aku selalu imagine tu aku. Start ah fikir macam mana aku mati. Kat mana, dengan siapa, yada yada yada.

So, kalau aku yang pergi dulu, merepekness aku kat IG, FB and WA semua dah takde. Orang dah tak boleh bingit cakap "stop it lah Annisaaaa!!"

Kalau korang nak make tribute to aku kan, buat yang kelakar and merepek jer lah k. Takmo sedih-sedih ah. Nanti kalau aku log in and nak check-in kat alam barzah, ternampak post korang, sedih aku. Nanti aku pass password aku kat Qiey so dia boleh approve tags korang k.

Baju-baju aku yang berlambak tu, boleh lah kasi sesiapa yang muat. Kasut-kasut aku pun tapi kasut aku size 4. Suspect kasi budak-budak kecik hehe. Tapi bags semua kasi mak aku k. Mak aku dah tak payah tanya, "Ica pinjam bag minggu ni boleh?"

Bila aku mati, orang-orang yang sayang kan aku semua mula menangis. Dorang kene redha dengan pemergian aku especially Qiey. Sebab kalau dia redha, aku boleh masuk syurga hehe. Takpe, aku rela dia kahwin lagi. I benar kan hahaha. I hope they will always feel there's a missing piece in their life when I'm not around anymore.

Aku dimandikan dengan lembut. Tertip jer dorang bersih kan. Dorang takut kalau aku rasa sakit atau pedih. Cause eventually we can still feel.

Lepas tu dorang kapan kan aku, wangi-wangi sebab aku nak kembali kedapa Allah kan. Suci dengan kain bersih, kain putih. Dorang jaga aurat aku sebab aku masih boleh nampak and akan rasa malu kalau yang bukan mahram tengok. Tutup semua dengan sempurna lepas tu selimut kan pulak dengan kain batik just to make sure body shape aku tak kelihatan.

Aku taknak sey dah mati baru nak rasa malu aurat aku dilihat. And malu sey kalau aku tak jaga aurat tapi orang lain yang sebok jaga aurat aku, bila dah mati. Hopefully cara aku tutup aurat aku sekarang is the proper way. InshaaAllah.

Satu persatu mahram aku datang tabur kan pacai, tatap muka aku for the lastttt time before aku "sealed with a kiss". Time tu, aku akan berada dengan dorang kat tepi, usap kepala dorang and bisik "I'll wait for you".

Dorang mula solat kan aku, Qiey jadi imam. Dengar takbir 4 kali, echoed by the rest of the jemaah. Dorang du'a kan aku tak terhenti. Cakap aku orang yang baik. I hope.

Bertolak sudah ke pusaraman. My body lowered into the ground by 3-4 men who I guess will be Qiey and my brothers. Time for me to leave everyone & everything behind. Yang ikut aku cuma amalan aku. Aku dah tak boleh buat apa-apa dah. Dah tak boleh selamatkan diri aku lagi melainkan amalan-amalan yang aku pernah buat. No turning back.

Kalau cikgu ITE aku kata ITE means It's The End, hahaha dia salah. THIS is the end, of dunya.

Jenazah aku mula rasa berat sebab ditimbus tanah. Orang kat atas semua masih menangis. Aku nakkkk sangat peluk dorang and tell them everything will be fine. Dorang pun mesti kalau boleh nak peluk aku for the last time. I hope.

Tazkirah given by ustaz. And then, 1 by 1 leave. Left me alone. Quiet. Empty. Dark. Scared.

Lepas tu aku imagine aleh-aleh kubur aku terang, accompanied and lighted up by Quran. Malaikat pulak datang and tanya aku the 5 golden questions, with a smile. Aku jawab macam air jer. Amik report book tangan kanan, jalan atas titian in a flash. Allah. Kalau lah tu terjadi. Seronoknyeee (imagine suara Arian, anak Tomok). Amiin. Amiin.

Sekarang nak kene betul kan lagi lah amalan aku kat dunya ni. Nak kene make sure everybody loves me hahah. Jadi dorang tak akan lupa kan aku and sentiasa du'a kan aku. Eh du'a tu important sey. Nak kene baikkkk dengan suami, ibu and ayah aku. Ekhem. Tu semua ticket to heaven.

Aku harap sangat aku dapat berkumpul dengan orang-orang yang aku sayang kat syurga. Semua jadi handsome and jambu. Suci. Bercahaya. I shall wait for that moment. It will come InshaaAllah. It will be the best moment and I am gona blog about it with lotsa wefie. Hehe.

Wassalam.

Bajubajubajuba

Assalamualaikum. 

Last Monday aku tengah plan baju apa aku nak pakai for this week, aku belet-belet lah baju kat almari aku tu. Aku realised ada afew bajus yang aku dah tak pakai for quite sometimes so I guess aku nak kemas lah baju-baju tu. Take out and give away. Ingat nak jual Carousell tapi macam malas pulak nak amik-amik gambar and measurements segalak.

Ah? Oh hehe yes aku ada habit planning what to wear for the week. I will write down what I wear on my calender. And aku bilang korang secret eh, I can not repeat my clothes for atleast a month. Because 1) aku particular. Aku rasa macam tak gerek kalau repeat baju too often. 2) baju aku belambak so kalau tak pakai macam wasted. 3) baju aku belambak!!

Speaking of baju belambak, lepas plan what to wear, aku bukak my parcel from Poplook.com (best online shop evaaaaa!!!) sebab nak transfer to a paper bag to send for alteration. Aku tahu aku mesti nak kene alter the length if I buy their dresses. Maklom lah, akak kan comey.


Bila aku nak masuk kan those dresses into a paper bag, I found another 2 dresses in that paper bag! 2 dresses yang I was suppose to send for alteration but aku tak send. Aku lupa. Ya robb.

Baju dah belambak!! Order lagi!! Bila nak berubah ni Annisa??!!

Oh! And this is not the 1st time k aku lupa about my purchase. Ada sekali ni aku ordered something lepas tu bila benda tu dah sampai, aku tak ingat langsung yang aku ordered that thing! Aku sampai kene check email to refresh my memory. Rabak per geng!

Aku ada a habit of looking through those online shops before tidur. Like those Groupon lah Ensogo lah. So when aku nampak benda cantik and murah gila, aku click BUY. And sometimes aku buat kerja-kerja tu bila aku dah half asleep. So jangan salah kan aku kalau aku tak ingat apa aku beli. Haha ni bukan alasan dok. Ni betul-betul bukan salah aku.

Aku nak kene carik pendinding ah untuk jaga aku dari bershopping. LOL nonsense eh. Astaghfirullah halazim. Ok ok I need really stop this habit.

Oh look! Sale!

Wassalam.

P/S 1 of my bosses actually ever said to me, "I realised you always have something nice to wear ah." Awkwardddd....

Rejekik

Assalamualaikum.

Pejam celik, dah nak masuk 4 tahun aku kahwin. 4 tahun bro. Cepat betul masa berlalu. So far my marriage has been good. Tapi biasa lah, sedangkan lidah boleh tergigit, apatah lagi suami isteri. Ceybah.

So as I've mentioned in my first ever entry, aku belum dikurniakan anak. Tapi aku tak rasa sensitive pun about it. Aku tak sedih pun every time aku datang menses. Aku tak rasa terkilan pun kalau orang sekeliling aku get pregnant.

Aku rasa dosa lah pulak kalau aku cakap aku taknak ada anak. Ibu aku cakap sekarang boleh lah aku enjoy, tapi nanti dah tua, aku rasa sunyi. Tapi nak buat macam mana, dah takde rezeki. Oops salah. Belum ada rezeki I mean. Heh.

Aku pernah post dekat FB yang semua tertulis untuk aku dah kira perfect sebab rezeki aku dalam benda lain berlimpah ruah. Walaupun 'O' levels aku flop, aku ada jugak tempat kat ITE. Lepas ITE, aku dapat masuk poly. Aku graduate in 3 years flat. Orang sekeliling aku semua terbaik. Family, husband, inlaws, jiran, kawan, sedara-mara, semua lah. Aku dapat jodoh pun cepat, in early 20s.

Aku kerja ni, aku start even before aku officially graduate. Dah nak masuk 6 tahun dah aku kat company ni beb. Every year dapat increment and bonus. Gaji aku sekarang MashaaAllah lebih dari apa aku expected. Aku dapat rumah pun senang, 1 kali apply jer.

All these I've mentioned bukan aku nak eksen tau cuma aku nak ingat kan diri aku yang rezeki aku selama ni tak pernah putus. See all that Annisa? Syukur Ya Robb. Alah banyak lagi lah rezeki lain yang aku dapat here and there. And there are of course hiccups in between. Cuma rezeki anak jer belum sampai. *shrugs & smiles*

Kita bukan kene bersangka baik dengan manusia jer tau. Kita kene jugak bersangka baik dengan Allah sebab trust me, He knows everything! He's the perfect planner.

Aku bukan taknak ikhtiar cuma aku tak tahu ah asal aku tak push myself. Ibu aku selalu jugak suruh makan itu ini tapi aku tak makan pun or maybe aku makan once or twice terus aku forgot about it. Secara tidak sengaja okayyy....

Ibu pujuk aku suruh pergi check up. Ok fine, I give her the benefit of the doubt, I went. Tapi mulut aku bising ah cakap malas lah mahal lah waste money lah waste time lah. So aku pergi KKH and after 3 visits, doctor "discharged" aku. Aku reluctant ah at 1st cause aku takut doctor cakap aku mandol. Hahaha! And bagus ah jugak pergi check. Mana tahu can detect other sickness. Alhamdullillah aku ni normal and aku takde sebarang sakit lain.

Dulu aku bingit bila orang asik tanya aku "dah ada isi?" Tapi sekarang, aku tak kesah pun. Tanya jer lah. Jawapan aku tetap sama which is "belum ada stock." Hahaha! Ibu marah kalau aku jawab main-main. Ibu suruh aku jawab "Belum ada rezeki, du'a kan yer." Boring ah sentence tu. Cliché.

Tapi soalan yang buat aku taklei accept bila orang tanya "bila nak ada anak?" Kau nak aku jawab apa eh? Sekarang? Besok? Lusa? Apakah man.

Bila orang pergi umrah ke haji, once jer aku suruh pakcik aku du'a kan aku dapat zuriat. Tu pun bila baru-baru kahwin. Sekarang, aku mintak orang du'a kan aku supaya murah rezeki dan 1 hari aku dapat ke tanah suci jugak. Khalas.

Tapi bila orang suruh aku makan itu ke makan ini ke or urut ke apa, aku sentap sikit. Dengan ibu pun aku selalu tersentap. Macam bingit ah padahal niat dorang baik, nak bantu aku. Ala ego lah tu. Tapi serious, tak tahu asal aku feel that orang-orang ni make it sound like as if aku ni loser, takde anak.

Kira apa, perempuan yang takde anak tu tak sempurna ah? Why must people make it sound like that? Why must people have the mindset of kesempurnaan tu bila wanita melahirkan anak? Why must people sympathies on women who don't have child(ren)? Aku rasa tak payah kot nak "kesian eh sipulan takde anak". You make it sound like as if orang tu pathetic! *Korang imagine aku sekarang tengah berbicara dengan nada yang tegas ah eh and kening kerut-kerut.* Hahaha!

Aku tak tahu ah geng apa nak rasa. Aku ni kira ok jer tau takde anak. Tapi bila orang-orang ni mempersoalkan tentang anak kat aku, tu part yang buat aku stress. Bukan stress takde anak, stress dengan orang-orang ni.

It is not like as if aku yang taknak. It is Allah who choose not to give me zuriat yet. Bukan nyer aku makan pill perancang, bukan nyer aku cocok-cocok jarum to make sure I don't get pregnant. Allah belum nak kasi, faham tak? Faham ke tidakkk? Hahaha! Aku tak marah tau. Lek eh. Aku cakap jer. Hahaha!

Aku berterima kasih sangat dengan semua yang kisah pasal aku, yang peduli pasal aku. Tapi kalau boleh, jangannnn lah tanya-tanya aku lagi pasal anak. Jangannn lah suruh makan itu makan ini or whatever lah. Sebab nanti aku bingit, aku akan mengamok to my friends. Aku will outburst kat dorang. Hahaha!

Korang du'a kan jer lah aku selalu dihujani rezeki. Tak kisah lah in any forms. Just rezeki. Allah tu maha kuasa, maha mengetahui. Allah tahu apa yang terbaik untuk aku jadi kita serahkan lah pada Allah yer.

Aku ni cakap on behalf of all the women yang belum ada anak. Aku atleast ok cause aku takde lah nakkkkkkk sangat ada anak. Tapi those other women yang nakkkkk sangat ada anak tapi tak dapat-dapat, korang kesian kan lah dorang. Not kesian sebab dorang takde anak sebab Allah knows best. Kesian kan dorang sebab dorang ada hati dan perasaan. Be sensitive lah. Please lah. Ishhh tolong lah faham.

Dah lah, aku dah penat mengetype. Yang faham tu faham lah. Tapi aku tahu mesti ada yang tak akan faham or choose not to faham. Gasak korang lah. Haha givup aku.

K ciao.
Wassalam.

P/S Maaf kalau aku ada terkasar bahasa dalam entry ni. Tolong jangan ambil hati. Ambil lah ikhtibar. Dan tolong jangan ambil debit/credit card aku. I need them for shopping. Takde link eh hahaha!

Selamat Malam Nenek Sukinah

Assalamualaikum.

18 April 2015 is the date doctor informed that nenek had cancer. Doctor cakap it has been a year but cancer is not easy to be detected, hence it was only then they detected it. By then, nenek was already at her stage 4. Doctor said nenek has few weeks to live. Tapi kita serahkan segala nya kepada Allah.

Padahal, nenek orang nya sihat tau. Tak pernah masuk hospital, so kira that was her 1st time. Nenek can still walk. Fit lah for a woman aged 79.

Nenek Sukinah ni Qiey punya nenek. Seorang nenek yang penyayang. Ramaiiii orang sayang nenek. Cucu-cucu semua rapat sangat dengan nenek.

Aku takde lah rapat sangat dengan nenek tapi kalau pergi visit nenek, aku suka jugak borak-borak dengan nenek. Suka tengok nenek senyum. Nenek has a very sweet smile. Manisss sangat.

The period nenek dah start sakit tu, aku jarang lah jengok nenek. Aku busy sangat dengan kerja. Hari-hari balik pukul 9 malam. Kadang-kadang 10, 11 & even 12. Weekends pulak aku selalu ada agenda. So last 2 Sundays since aku pun takde plan lepas course, aku ikut Qiey lah kan. She looked fine you know. Aku tanya khabar, nenek jawab. Aku ajak berborak, nenek senyum.

"Orang-orang ni dah minum? Kasi lah dorang air."

Time tu, aku dalam bilik sorang dengan nenek. 1 of Qiey punya makcik keluar sekejap.

"Ok nanti Annisa kasi dorang air. Nenek tidur lah yer."

Aku seram sikit ah but maybe she's referring to the people outside the room? Perhaps.

Eventually nenek pun ada cakap something kat biras aku, Kak GG, that night. Nenek tanya something like asal nenek lama sangat dekat sini and said something like bila nak balik and nenek nak tidur.

17th May 2015, MIL aku message Qiey to go rumah nenek soonest. It was late evening already. Aku tak tahu asal aku macam hesitant nak pergi but at the same time terasa sangat nak pergi. Azan maghrib jer, aku and Qiey solat then terus keluar.

Sampai rumah nenek around 8pm. Nenek was seriously not in her good state. Kita turn by turn selawat kat telinga nenek, baca-baca yassin. Ustaz datang baca du'a. Habis jer du'a, azan Isyak berkumandang, nenek pun hembus nafas terakhir pelan-pelan dan pergi kembali ke rahmatullah.

It was... real. Nenek is... gone. Right infront of our eyes.

That was the 1st time I witnessed someone took her last breath. Aku... tergamam. Aku tak boleh stop crying. Walaupun aku tak serapat dengan nenek, tapi it was just too... sad.

1 by 1 nenek's children and grandchildren came. 1 by 1 cried for her passing.

Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi rojiun

Allahummagh firlaha warhamha wa'afiha wa'fu anha. "Ya Allah ampunilah dia, berilah rahmat, kesejahteraan dan ma'afkanlah dia."

Al-fatehah buat nenek Sukinah bte Kassan.

P/S Pardon if my sentence structure, grammars and such are all over the blog (place).