Selamat Malam Nenek Sukinah

Assalamualaikum.

18 April 2015 is the date doctor informed that nenek had cancer. Doctor cakap it has been a year but cancer is not easy to be detected, hence it was only then they detected it. By then, nenek was already at her stage 4. Doctor said nenek has few weeks to live. Tapi kita serahkan segala nya kepada Allah.

Padahal, nenek orang nya sihat tau. Tak pernah masuk hospital, so kira that was her 1st time. Nenek can still walk. Fit lah for a woman aged 79.

Nenek Sukinah ni Qiey punya nenek. Seorang nenek yang penyayang. Ramaiiii orang sayang nenek. Cucu-cucu semua rapat sangat dengan nenek.

Aku takde lah rapat sangat dengan nenek tapi kalau pergi visit nenek, aku suka jugak borak-borak dengan nenek. Suka tengok nenek senyum. Nenek has a very sweet smile. Manisss sangat.

The period nenek dah start sakit tu, aku jarang lah jengok nenek. Aku busy sangat dengan kerja. Hari-hari balik pukul 9 malam. Kadang-kadang 10, 11 & even 12. Weekends pulak aku selalu ada agenda. So last 2 Sundays since aku pun takde plan lepas course, aku ikut Qiey lah kan. She looked fine you know. Aku tanya khabar, nenek jawab. Aku ajak berborak, nenek senyum.

"Orang-orang ni dah minum? Kasi lah dorang air."

Time tu, aku dalam bilik sorang dengan nenek. 1 of Qiey punya makcik keluar sekejap.

"Ok nanti Annisa kasi dorang air. Nenek tidur lah yer."

Aku seram sikit ah but maybe she's referring to the people outside the room? Perhaps.

Eventually nenek pun ada cakap something kat biras aku, Kak GG, that night. Nenek tanya something like asal nenek lama sangat dekat sini and said something like bila nak balik and nenek nak tidur.

17th May 2015, MIL aku message Qiey to go rumah nenek soonest. It was late evening already. Aku tak tahu asal aku macam hesitant nak pergi but at the same time terasa sangat nak pergi. Azan maghrib jer, aku and Qiey solat then terus keluar.

Sampai rumah nenek around 8pm. Nenek was seriously not in her good state. Kita turn by turn selawat kat telinga nenek, baca-baca yassin. Ustaz datang baca du'a. Habis jer du'a, azan Isyak berkumandang, nenek pun hembus nafas terakhir pelan-pelan dan pergi kembali ke rahmatullah.

It was... real. Nenek is... gone. Right infront of our eyes.

That was the 1st time I witnessed someone took her last breath. Aku... tergamam. Aku tak boleh stop crying. Walaupun aku tak serapat dengan nenek, tapi it was just too... sad.

1 by 1 nenek's children and grandchildren came. 1 by 1 cried for her passing.

Innalillahi wa inna ilaihi rojiun

Allahummagh firlaha warhamha wa'afiha wa'fu anha. "Ya Allah ampunilah dia, berilah rahmat, kesejahteraan dan ma'afkanlah dia."

Al-fatehah buat nenek Sukinah bte Kassan.

P/S Pardon if my sentence structure, grammars and such are all over the blog (place).