Goodbye First Trimester

Assalamualaikum.

Ada segelintir kawan yang tanya aku, "How is it like knowing you're pregnant?" Frankly, sebelum aku pergi scanning, aku in denial.

Aku asik tertanya, "Ada ke baby kat dalam?" And aku asik mimpi aku pergi checkup tapi tak nampak apa-apa.

Babes, korang fikir eh, 4 tahun tau aku kosong abeh tiba-tiba aku pregnant. Mesti ah aku macam terfikir-fikir and tertanya-tanya.

I am not questioning Allah, that's for sure. I'm just asking myself like how can this be possible. Hehehe. Yesss aku tahu ni semua kuasa Illahi. Aku terima syukur Alhamdulillah.

Aku ingat kalau dah lama sangat kosong, the only way to get pregnant is through IVF. But I was wrong. Allah kalau nak kasi, Allah akan kasi. Cuma kene memperbanyakkan doa. Kalau Allah nak amik balik pun, Allah akan amik tak kasi warning. Hence, I don't put my expectations too high. As high as tingkat 2 jer ah, taknak higher than that.

As I've mentioned in previous post, aku berdoa semoga Allah beri aku rezki yang terrrrbaik. Aku terima seadanya. Tak kira rezeki apa. Pelan-pelan Allah kasi aku rezeki itu rezeki ini. Cuma rezeki anak tu Allah cakap tunggu masa yang tepat. Jadi ni lah masa yang tepat I guess.

So aku finally pergi check up. Wanted to go earlier before pergi umrah tapi takde slot. So 2nd Jan 2016 it is. Registered and waited for the moment to be called.

'Mdm Annisa Zahra.'

Huhu Madam dok! Aku masuk bilik, the nurse suruh aku baring and wait for the doctor to come.

'Mam the doctor will do scanning for you. If she cannot see the baby, she might do an internal scanning.'

Weyh tak klakor! Aku terus cakap dengan baby aku lebih baik jangan main hide and seek eh. Show yourself. I don't wana get erm you know. Hahaha!

Doctor pun masuk and start scanning. Dia go slow and then tekan sikit. Ya Allah. There's the baby. So visible. So cute. The head, the limbs. MashaaAllah.

Doctor let us hear the heartbeat. It was so loud. That's my baby in there. Our baby. Warghhhh!!

Then baby starts to move. Doctor jiggle my tummy abit and saw my baby kicking in excitement. Doctor cakap baby kita action. Hahaha!

I couldn't hold back my tears. Aku tak nangis nangis ah. Aku tearing.

'Macam takde pa per eh. Sekali ada baby. Hehe got baby inside. So cute.'

Qiey's comment after the scan. I thought so too dear. Rupanya ada budak sebesar 4cm jer ni kat dalam. Now aku tak payah nak denial denial sangat. Dah nampak pun budak tu, confirm lah aku pregnant hehehe.

Ramai yang cakap 1st trimester will not be easy. Tell me about ittt... Apa aku makan semua tak kene BUT Alhamdullillah aku takde lah ke tahap makan muntah makan muntah. Rasa nak muntah tu 24/7 though.

Naik bus or cars/taxis dah macam nak pergi battle dok. Baca doa banyak-banyak. Motion sickness not funny. Kalau sampai Uber punya driver kene stop kat expressway punya road shoulder just to let me vomit tu apa hal. Ggrrr!

Other than fatigue and nausea and vomiting, I didn't know there are 25796425685 more symptoms in just 1st trimester. Whenever weird things happened to me, I'll tend to Google up.

There was once my right calf was so sore. Calf as in muscle bukan anak kambing tau. Mana tahu korang ingat aku bela anak kambing. Ok anyways I gota limp abit when I walk. When I Google, it was actually a part of pregnancy symptoms. Okayyy...

One night I feel massive bloating. Google said it will start from week 11 to birth time. All I need to do is eat small portions (which I do most of the time) & eat slowly. Ok fine I usually gobble up my food hehe. Okayyy lesson learnt lah!

Semalam went for 2nd checkup. Sekarang dah jejak 2nd trimester, I think. Dah 13weeks kot so erm 2nd ah kan? Hahaha! InshaaAllah it will be better for me.

Budak ni cekik darah eh. Perangai bapak nyer dah terikut agaknyer hahaha. Bila scanning tu tak tahu diam. Kita nak dia baring straight diam-diam sebab nak amik measurements, dia golek sana golek sini. Lepas tu bila nak tengok muka, dia bontot kan kita and stayed still. Aku asik kene action batuk and pusing kanan kiri jadi dia akan goyang-goyang lagi. Hahaha main-main eh!

By the way, Alhamdullillah I am gaining my appetite but still small portion meals. Those annoying vomit marathon has ended. I don't hafta take the nausea pills already! Yippedoo!

I lost 4kg during this period though tapi tetap nampak fatty lah. Aku dah tak boleh tuck in tummy. Boncit pun boncit lah nak, asalkan kau sihat kat dalam tu.

Only prob is, I hafta keep reminding myself to get up from my seat slowly. Feel abit of stitches everytime I get up but all fine InshaaAllah.

I always lose track of the number of weeks I am pregnant lah. Qiey said when people ask, I always say I am at 12 weeks. If not, I will just say 3 months haha.

'Asik 12 weeks jer.'

Hahaha! Semalam kat counter pun aku cakap aku 12 weeks. I have those track app thingy so whenever people ask me, I will need to check the apps if they wana know the exact week. Why do people wana know exact week sey? So the tak perlu. Hahaha!

I cannot even remember my EDD. My bestie Mas answered for me the other day when my other friend asked. Ok ok I must take note. Ok ok I know alreadyyy. I will rememberrr. 25th July ok. 25th July.

Sesungguhnya budak dalam perut aku ni kurniaan Tuhan yang paling precious, aku akan sentiasa berdoa semoga Allah akan sentiasa melindungi aku dan budak ni. Haha! Korang pun doa kan kita ok. Sayang korang!

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